:the feeling ov is it mania or a relapse on the horizon:

:hOly shit is this is there an end - my mind racing relentless without mercy - maybe i should buy something a phone something - i'll make promises 4 2maro - i'll have a lump sum and we'll b happy - woa i got2 slow down - almost hit that mail box driving - can't u feel it it's coming - slowly working its way up from my gut - it's almost in me throughout - that's right listen - can't u hear it it's coming closer - out ov alignment i am - sounds crashing - insight blurrred - godd will i remember any ov this - am I bad 4 spelling Godd - talk 2 someone - someone who knows - someone who cares - hang out - camp out - cannot b alone is just where i am - can't pay my bills is just where i am - godds got me cornered is just where i am - accept it chew your cud - sorting the process ov alignment is a painful thing - always grasping 4 a lesser sloth solution in order 2 extinguish my mortal fears of facing the child i've been murdering 4 these last 23 years - it always takes me back - godd in the hands ov men - what good could come ov it - duality and religion in the great war 4 our souls - out ov alignment don't even know where i fit - getting some perspective from the fellowship, my sponsor and the 12 steps - yeah i fit i'm not alone - NA = Never Alone - still dizzy maybe it's time 2 eat - friends clean friends said come over - do it joshua u r welcome - feel better calming - godd is out 4 ur best interest - it's going 2 b ok - higher power is with me - godd says this 2 shall pass - just don't buy anything in the meantime thus sayeth the lord:

Temptd & Turnd

I hear my sponsor - there's nothing he hasn't done - that i can out do - i want 2 impersonate & emulate - what a wealth ov knowledge - where does he come from - does it matter - or just where he go's - i want 2 go 2 - all impressionable - accept it it's true - addict i am like brother 2 the leach - always hungry starving - fill me with u - or a substance masking as a the way 2 feel freedom - it leaves me loneliness unsatisfied black & blue - tempted & turned - yelling laughing not dwelling - i did it yes it was me - not all ov u - my life i cannot manage - without the old wheelers and dealers - who have shot smoked dropped almost every spark ov hope - determined 2 live 4 the first time - all anew